I've told everybody everything I know and I'm left with no secrets. It's way too late to ask for any kind of immunity. When I was a kid I always longed for some kind of family compound so that I could be surrounded by cousins, aunts, uncles.
It's still hard for me to see company leave. My friends took me to a family style restaurant last night and I hated to walk out. Maybe it's time to worry about fear of abandonment when you hate to walk out on strangers.