Well, I guess it sneaked up on me. How long have you been at your job? I just realized this morning that I've now invested fifty years in this racket. In the words of a brilliant critic, "my so-called writing." I wouldn't trade a minute of it for all the tea in China.
Invest your love wisely. Everybody's been hurt somewhere along the line. Give it away. Don't be drawn into conflict and drama. They'll find someone else to torment.