Maybe I've always been afraid of me. I've surely done everything to avoid being alone. I remember reading once, "I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of dying alone." I never got over it.
At some point in elementary school I was told that some Buddhist monks wouldn't go outside after dark for fear of stepping on insects. I have my own reservations about venturing out after dark now.
My belief that all science and all art are about love sums up my philosophy. My language is rock'n'roll.
An eccentric is someone with an unusual set of ideas. I'm a one off. Eccentrics are common. Dime a dozen.