Hoodwinked by the system? Don't play. Take a look at those self-important lackeys sucking up to criminaloids in government and organized religion, big business, entertainment and professional sports.
Those voices in your head, your own drum- listen to them.
Joy hides in books and in the woods. There are dogs and cats in the shelters who will show you where it is. Music is chock full of it, especially the sad stuff.
Love just as hard as you can. Don't worry about love coming back. That's not what it's about.