Looking back, I should have paid more attention to the dogs in my life. Oh yeah, I should never have spent time with anybody who didn't want to spend time with me. I wish I had kissed more hands and held more doors open.
Worrying has definitely taken up too much of my time and my energy. Everything worked out just like it would have if I hadn't worried at all.
Friends with good intentions tell me that I should have been more discreet with my so called love life. If I had it to do over, and I don't, I would love harder. Wilder, with more abandon and less thought to outcome.
Maybe I should have written more in 3/4 time and ignored rhyme.
It is what it is and was what it was. A long ago ex once told me "Just remember the good parts" - but I forgot most of them because the bad ones were so bad. But it doesn't eat me alive now - now it's more like reading it from a book, as tho it happened to someone else. But her name was a damned good one to mention to my ex wife when she was on one of her Something From Nothing Rampages - because it made her stop and internalize things and seethe silently. But like I say, it's all like riding in a car and seeing a fence post - you see it, you note it, and then the next day happens.
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